oh, and Chapter 5 Pages 19 and 20 are up for anyone who gives a damn.

http://cosmos.smackjeeves.com

Chapter Five pages 17 and 18 are up! 

For now I think LJ is gonna be my exclusive spot for letting people know of manga updates, so keep checking back here!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "We All Live in a Silver Spaceship" (the Cosmos theme song?)

Yep, you read right!!  Cosmos is back online!  Well, the first chapter anyway.  I'm working on going through and re-texting all of the dialogue so people don't have to sit there and decipher my awful handwriting.  I'm not putting as much effort into making it look professional as I did last time, of course that's because then I was doing 2-3 pages at a time and now I'm doing like 30 at a time.  But lately a lot of people have been asking about it, so I got up off my ass and I'm getting it back online!  I even have some new pages that internet-only readers have yet to see!!!

http://cosmos.smackjeeves.com/

I know, the site name is silly, but it works XD.  Hooray for free layouts!

Please come visit!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Mata Ashita!" By the Host Club

So I'm really trying to get myself to use the computer less, since I've noticed I'm pretty much on it from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed.  I was thinking I should read more instead, but I have such a short attention span, which is probably an effect of the numerous brain cells lost when sitting in front of the computer... go figure.  Then again maybe I just need a lighter book... right now I'm trying to read The Once and Future King, a very interesting novel about the life of King Arthur and such, but it's kind of heavy and sometimes boring to be honest.  But aaaanywaay... I have a long ways to go.  It's funny when you step back and look you notice just how dependent you are on something.  I'll be working slowly on breaking this annoying habit.  If worse comes to worse I shall go with the Yuuko solution (or not. my mom would kill me).

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Tsubasa Chronicle OST Future Soundscape III

Yeah not that many people really read my journal (I prefer to keep it that way) but anyway every once in a while you just find a site you want to share with the world.  So here it is, Maya's super duper site of the day!!

http://www.travelphrases.info/gallery/Fonts_Japanese.html

Japanese fonts galore!  And some really nice ones too!

Yet to find a good animation program...

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Sheep go to Heaven" by Cake

So the Beretta, the car I learned to drive on, the car I partially owned, my baby, is gone.  ;_;   Some random guy came and bought it off us for parts... it's not like it works anymore anyway, but I was still kind of sad when I was cleaning it out and taking out all my tapes (remember those?) and I found a gatorade bottle under the seat that i had put my name on in permanent marker (probably stole it from work at my old job... aaah those were the days).   Heheh sometimes I can be over sentimental. 

In other news!  Er, well there isn't really any other news... I need to download a gif animator so I can whip up some creative icons for myself.   That is all.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: "Fuusen Gum" by Captain Stridum

At the end of last month there was a plane crash in which three students from my high school plus an older pilot died.  I didn't pay much attention to it, I was thinking "I'm done with that school already, why should I care?"  I never bothered to find out the names of the students.  But today in the paper there was another article about the crash with the names, and I realized that I knew one of them.  He was a member of chess club back when I was there, an obnoxious annoying brat who many days I sincerely wished would go away... but not like this.  I would never have wished anything like this on him.  Thinking about it hurts so much, even though I was never that close to him.   Why should anyone die this young?  It just seems so twisted and wrong.  Meanwhile I'm sitting here kicking myself.... I should have figured out sooner, I should have gone to the funeral, I should have been there for my mourning friends.  I don't know what to do anymore.

Current Mood: guilty

So my mom just called, and for some reason it's always just painful and depressing to talk to her. She always points out how lazy I am and nothing I do manage to do seems to be good enough for her. It's been a long five years away from her and it seems like the rift in our relationship has grown to the point where it is irreparable. Unfortunately she's my mother (she's also paying for my college education), so it's not like I can just say goodbye and forget about her. Sometimes I wish I could...

Current Mood: uncomfortable
Current Music: "Pray" by Tommy heavenly6

You know, even when your life sucks and has fallen to pieces, sometimes there are just things that make you forget about it all, or perhaps even better, make you realize that it doesn't really even matter. Today I went with my dad and stepmom up to their friend's camp near Farmington. We spent the day up there hanging out by the lake, relaxing, eating snacks and vegetarian bbq, making smores, and kayaking. I was out on the kayak and I just stared at the lake in front of me and felt the breeze and wondered why the hell I have been so worried about everything. Of course now that I'm home it all comes back to me, but it was nice to just forget things for a while.

On a side note, Kajiura Yuki never ceases to amaze me (see music).

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Tsubasa Chronicle OST Future Soundscape III

Yeah, so I know I created an LJ account once before, but God knows what it was. Besides, I like this name better. I am generally bored with life and lonely and sad right now and since my friends are probably tired of me venting to them over AIM I thought I really should make a spot where I can vent to myself. I don't really expect anyone to read this, but that's ok, it's nice to have just for myself.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "home nite" by Suga Shikao